January 31st, 2014

i need a moment

Reality is the leading cause of stress

I really could use someone to vent to because I just don't have that anymore. Uncle Drama 2.0 started last week and is not stopping at all. Early Thursday afternoon it all started to just get to me. I spent all last night walking around not saying one word which ticked off my Grandpa. But had I opened my mouth and talked they would not have liked what I would have said. This morning was just more of last night.

So I broke down, and ate a pizza today. Pizza really is my stress food. I feel calm when I eat it, but it makes me slightly sick at the same time. I'd been doing good too, 2wks no pizza and then all this happened. At least I couldn't eat the whole pizza but I ate enough of it. But I didn't know what else to do.

I need to come up with a better way to relieve this stress instead of eating pizza. I really want to cut it completely out of my diet if I can. But easier said then done. I really feel like I should go walk 5 miles now but due to pouring rain I can't right now.

I need to join a Gym for women only.

Let's Watch: Movie - Heathers

I have always believed that I have an odd taste for movies. I tend to like dramas and black comedies more then fluffy happy stories; though I like those as well. So when I find myself in a self-hating and depressing mood I turn to movies that have a darker comedic nature. On my list of 'Movies that make me Feel Better' sits Heathers. A movie I think that everyone should at least watch once.

Now I don't remember this movie being in the theaters. I know it came out the same year as Beetlejuice (1988) when I was about 6 or 7. (Depends on the time of year.) So for the longest time I didn't know of this movie. And like most older movies that I came to like I discovered it by chance. I was about 14yrs old when I first came upon Heathers on TV late at night. (Remember when the USA network used to show uncensored movies after midnight?) What made me stop to watch the movie was seeing Winona Ryder and Christian Slater in it. And I just so happen to be a fan of both of them. In fact, he is one of only 2 actors I have even sent a fan letter too and the only one to reply back. (Yes I still have the photo.) I had seen him in the movie Pump Up the Volume just a few mouth before and liked him in an instant. (Had my mother known what was in that movie she wouldn't have got it for me) So I was surprised to see him with Winona Ryder. Heathers turned out to be an instant favorite.

I mean what is not to love about two crazy teenager's killing the popular kids in school and making it look like suicides. Only to discover that in death they gave the people they killed more meaning and depth then they had in life. The movie makes light of not only the deaths of the people but in how they died and the death notes that were found with them. The movie also uses color themes as a way to point out not only the main group but to show who has the power.

The movie also gave us some really fun quotes. Here are a few of my favorite ones:

Veronica Sawyer:
All we want is to be treated like human beings, not to be experimented on like guinea pigs or patronized like bunny rabbits.
Veronica's Dad:
I don't patronize bunny rabbits.

Kurt's Dad:
My son's a homosexual, and I love him. I love my dead gay son.
(They think he was gay because instead of beer they had a Bottle of Mineral water at the scene. LOL)

I like it. It's got that what-a-cruel-world-let's-toss-ourselves-in-the-abyss type ambience.

Heather Duke:
Veronica, you look like hell.
Veronica Sawyer:
Yeah? I just got back.

And I think this is where I will leave off. Go Watch Heathers. It's worth it.